Random thoughts
Happiness is a rare thing. I hate thinking of all the times I forced myself to go to bed to avoid being tired for work, even though I was in the middle of working on a project that was making me happy. So, I have resolved to let happiness rule.
I need to be involved with something. I haven’t been involved with a long-term project since the social centre in Northerncity.
I relentlessly find activities and events and things that take me outside the house. But I’m always alone when I am in society.
My idea of making myself unceasingly busy was a partial success. I’ve watched two and a half films in the last ten days. This is an unusually low number, and I was also out on Tuesday (Lisp meetup), Wednesday (Brown for supper) and Thursday (abortive film at a lesbian bookshop). However, I don’t think I’d quite understood the required ingredients: I need gobs of all-evening events every night for days on end, plus the desire to get back to a project or exciting book. I now have the latter: I’m reading Jensen’s Endgame, I’m watching Peepcode screencasts, I’m working on my Clojure mp3-crawler and I’m really excited about trying out Node.js. I’m going to a queer femme show tonight, and meeting Dust for crepes tomorrow lunchtime. But I need more.